Thursday, September 02, 2004
the flowers you sent are dying
a sweet and beautiful death
pinks and whites
differs from the van gogh
exotic daisies instead of european sunflowers
(and i'm lacking a certain passion and life that the flowers once displayed)
withered
yet i do not want to part with them
but what they are is not what they were
and the reality of the now
does not even hint at its past glory
yet it reaks not with an aroma
asking for its disposal
it merely sits there, lifeless
falling apart.
-- 09.02.04
talk about bad poetry... sometimes you get inspired to write things in this form that is painful to read (because of how bad it is) after the fact... but hey, this is my blog... i can post bad poetry here! i'm not feeling much of it... even though the poem itself is so very melodramatic... i'm ok. its just that somehow, looking at something that has changed so much from something else can be quiet sad.
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a sweet and beautiful death
pinks and whites
differs from the van gogh
exotic daisies instead of european sunflowers
(and i'm lacking a certain passion and life that the flowers once displayed)
withered
yet i do not want to part with them
but what they are is not what they were
and the reality of the now
does not even hint at its past glory
yet it reaks not with an aroma
asking for its disposal
it merely sits there, lifeless
falling apart.
-- 09.02.04
talk about bad poetry... sometimes you get inspired to write things in this form that is painful to read (because of how bad it is) after the fact... but hey, this is my blog... i can post bad poetry here! i'm not feeling much of it... even though the poem itself is so very melodramatic... i'm ok. its just that somehow, looking at something that has changed so much from something else can be quiet sad.
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
... never knew i had a following...
things have been relatively busy on this end, so i have not had a chance to fill you all in on the completion of my first olympic distance tri. i actually didn't even think to blog (because unfortunately i blog about apprehensions and failures more than successes) until i recieved some comments that i have an audience waiting to find out (btw, who are you, kenny? do i know you?) if i actually ended up doing the race and how it went.
is the anticipation killing you?
yes. i competed in the three rivers olympic distance triathlon -- one of the toughest courses out here because of how hilly it was. i not only finished, i did not come in last, and i was happy with my time. how did i get from the despair of my last entry to this? that in itself is a long story i do not have time to tell presently. i have learned how much encouragement means to me. the short of it is this: a good friend of mine told me that its ok to fail. sounds simple, but after working so hard at something, i had a hard time thinking i would not do well. i think i care too much what people may think, and care too much about "being good" at something. if i weren't "good" -- i didn't even want to participate. so much like other aspects of my life (unfortunately). so i competed. i finished well (thankfully) and that feat, in and of itself, is a blessing from the Lord... why is it that i want to be able to train and do well and get the credit? perhaps its human nature. (for more details about the tri itself check this out...)
well... i'm glad to say that i'm ready to train for more triathlons next season... recognizing my imperfections and inadequacies made the race itself actually fun again.
(this was started in 9.1.04 but forgot to hit "post"... oops!)
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things have been relatively busy on this end, so i have not had a chance to fill you all in on the completion of my first olympic distance tri. i actually didn't even think to blog (because unfortunately i blog about apprehensions and failures more than successes) until i recieved some comments that i have an audience waiting to find out (btw, who are you, kenny? do i know you?) if i actually ended up doing the race and how it went.
is the anticipation killing you?
yes. i competed in the three rivers olympic distance triathlon -- one of the toughest courses out here because of how hilly it was. i not only finished, i did not come in last, and i was happy with my time. how did i get from the despair of my last entry to this? that in itself is a long story i do not have time to tell presently. i have learned how much encouragement means to me. the short of it is this: a good friend of mine told me that its ok to fail. sounds simple, but after working so hard at something, i had a hard time thinking i would not do well. i think i care too much what people may think, and care too much about "being good" at something. if i weren't "good" -- i didn't even want to participate. so much like other aspects of my life (unfortunately). so i competed. i finished well (thankfully) and that feat, in and of itself, is a blessing from the Lord... why is it that i want to be able to train and do well and get the credit? perhaps its human nature. (for more details about the tri itself check this out...)
well... i'm glad to say that i'm ready to train for more triathlons next season... recognizing my imperfections and inadequacies made the race itself actually fun again.
(this was started in 9.1.04 but forgot to hit "post"... oops!)
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